aNy mOmEnTs EvErYtInK CaN Ch@nGe

2006-09-05T11:54:00.000+08:00

im getting lazier n lazier to update my blog...

ok...my fault...
tired lar..

honey call me jus nw...
n i guess it ryte..
he got DEBARRED...

hey honey..dont fret k...
i will be by ur side...

im finishng my class soon...
n 2mrw...NO SCH..!!!
haiz...it can be fun..but it can be boring..
WAT A LYFE...

2006-08-25T08:50:00.000+08:00

i realI,reaLi honey so much...haizz...
and again todai im nt seeing him...
it's not tat i fight wit him or sometink..
jus tat honey been bz wit his werkpiece in sch...
he haven finish abt 5 werkpice...and i dun wan him to get debarred..

love reali must sacrifies..and i noe the meaning of it nw...
cos tat wat we both are doin nw.....
i myself are bz wit my project...honey was expecting me to c him today..
b4 he go to his bike prac..but too bad...i have to stay back to do my project...im sori honey...
i dun noe when im meeting honey again..

and also ystdy..honey told me abt his family problems...haiz...
i pity him so much....
i can see tat there is a big different between him and my family..
it's so different..im not bragging tat im rich...
jus tat i reali pity my guy..an 18 year old boy have to go through these...
it hurt me to c him lyke these..
but he would always refused wen i wan to help him..
he say he wan to b independent...and try not to get help frm other people...
reali impressed wit him...
im so thankful tat God have given honey a matured brain...he can tink...
honey..i'll always b by ur side...
being wit ups and downs...
jus promised me u will continue schooling n lov and trust me....
i will take of myself wen u r not wit me...
promise i will not do sometink bad behind u again...

i hope i can meet up wit u soon syg...i reali miss u so much...
love u honey....

2006-08-22T11:11:00.000+08:00

im back again...im so damn tired during the weekend...i have to help out at my cousin wedding..that day was reali hot...damn hot..no wind blowing ard..arrrgh...im wearing my tudung and i can feel the heat ard my head...gonna get migraine one day...lucky it's all over..hmmm...sempat me wash eyes...but mostly the guys there are mat rep...bOO-ring...they are just cute..but tattoo cover their hads...dun lyke sia...

but seriously got this 1 guy...okay...my cousin's brother's , his wife's sister husband...yup...someone husband wave and keep on smiling at me...stupid playboy..helllo...u are carrying ur chils..and u still got the guts to keep on smiling and steal glances at me wen ur wife is ard....oh boy... u r such an ass...wen he look at me and try to smile...i give a look and look away..i tink i hurt him...but who care...i tink u shud care abt ur wife and ur child...stop all ur nonsense...be a gd father and a gd husband....stop looking at other gerls..if u dun care abt ur wife animore...at least tink of ur child...hmmmph.....

2006-08-18T21:27:00.000+08:00

fuh...
i tink today i lost weight...
all bcos i got nafa test today...

run lyke hell for my 2.4km...
but i still fail..i noe im goona flung it...
firstly..i been eating much...
i didnt go to PE leson animore...lazy...hot weather..later tan how...??
didnt even practice running..
run 2 rounds...panting already...cannot tahan animore....
on the 4 round...my stomach pain...
my shit is already at the end..
have to tahan..no choice..
but the moment i finish my run..
no more pain..cannot shit...until nw...
ass...make my stomach big onli nw...hate it man....

after tat..me and fwens have a nice long bath..
arrrhh...shiok man..feel lyke staying in the cubicle....
we reali hog the toilets man...and so the kecoh..
throw shampoo,facial wash over the cubicle..haha...
the moments we finish bathing,we call the guys and they r at cafe 2...
sian leh..they all finish eating..wow..we reali take a lot of tyme huh...

well wtd...girls will always be girls....ryte..??

2006-08-17T10:31:00.000+08:00

okay..i apologised
for nt been updating my blog for exactly 2 weeks...
sorri lah...bz lah..got loads of projects and test cuming up...haizz...stress2...

i recap the wonderful moments in lyfe...
on 4 of august..it's my 18 mths anniversary...yey..
im hapi but still im afraid..well..normally most couples break off after 1 and half yr...
mcm usual..takleh angkat ngan perangai lah..itulah inilah..haizz...
but i guess im lucky i have a reali...REALI..patient guy...
even though symetyme wen im feeling down..and raise my voice at him...
he still speak veri nicely...wat a great guy.....luv u syg...

okay..lets recap wat i had done during the past days...

monday
i wake up reali in e morning..jus to study...gd gerl huh...haha...but actuali im doin my last minute revision of my cdn test...aiyo...pening kepala sey...normali everi mon..i would go to honey place and chill out...but today mus go to sch...arrrgh...
ltr went to sch wit fitri and daya..kecoh sey kite...nak blaja pun memekak...dgn semangat kite blaja kat dlm train...
and u noe bile train da smpai kat city hall..aderlah tis couple masok..dier nyer girl punyelah gelap.. i dun wan to critized tp dier nyer behaviou 2..kau dah gelap tu satu..lg kau nak step seksi dgn baju skolah kau...kau luper ke kaki kau byk kurap..dudok pun maintain ah...ni nak step seksi n selak2 kan skirt...aiyo...u guy noe wat...kurap die smpai kat paha...geli siot....!!!

tuesday...
as usual went to sch earli...daddy send mah...reach skool at ard 740..and lesson strt at 8..sit near the lift lobby and hear mp3...went inside classrm at ard815...pathetically..onli 5 ppl are there...aiyo...at ard 830 den my fwen came...kalau kwn da dtg...buku pun tolak tepi..
g bcm after tat and finnali lunch...lapar man...i eat mee sotoand put 3 big scoop ofchili..wow...my stomach sure blow after tat...and last period...cdn..fav...all of us are reali excited abt asking teacher abt our cdn results..well miss lee onli managed to mark the 1st 21 paper onli...hmmm...my reg no is 33...still a long way..shit....miss lee end the class by telling the marks she had mark...onli 1 fail...im so scared shit..i wanna get an "A" for tis paper..haiz...must wait lah...after tat..me and frens continued doing our project and finnali head hm...met parents near bb mrt and we went to makan...hungry olready.......

wednesday..
i was late..i supposed to meet fitri at 9 but i get off frm hm is 9..haha..wake up late lah..tired...my group fwens decided to meet in sch at 10 to do our project..we took bus 31 to sch and met 1 of my grp fwen..and it's already 1010am...so much for 10am...inilah janji melayu...well izz is the 1st person to reach der..wah...baek eh dier...we continue doing while me play games hussin bring...fun leh..we becom doctor and we mus operate the patient...the blood look real man...so yucky man...at ard 1145am we decided to go to bcm class since ou teacher told us section head will be cuming to class..the moment we reach class..less then 10 ppl are there..lah..rupenye..section head tak jd masok..slamat2...kene postpone on tuesday...haiz...teacher ask the ones tat jus came to class to do te work they had done during the 2 hrs...as usual..we malas...we all take our bag..abd quickly sneaked out of class..bad huh us...we went to cafe but no one feel lyke eating at skool..ahmad decided to go to beach rd to eat.and off we go...the 6 of us...we behave lyke monkeys man...laughter here and there..pictures here and there...aft eat..we went shopping...haha..jana told us we r lyke exchange student frm malaysia visiting singapore..haha...well we enjoy ourselves...

oklah tat all la..hand tired oready...i'll update soon k...c ya..

2006-08-03T10:26:00.000+08:00

Usah Tinggal Daku Kasih

Usah tinggal daku kekasih
Usah biar aku bersedih
Percintaan ini memang zalim
Tak bermata tak berhati
Seolah-olah kini teracunnya dunia

Kita pernah riang bersama
Kita pernah rasai duga
Mereka ingin kita berpisah
Tanpa harga tanpa nilai
Tanpamu aku sepi

Ku tetap akan berpegang janji
Tuk hidup bersamamu walau diri sengsara
Tiada lagi airmata dapat ku merayu
Untuk bersamamu

Jgn tinggalkan aku
Walau sementara
Jgn biarkan dendam mempermainkan kita

Di mataku hanya kau
Penawar dari syurga
Usah dikau tinggalkan
Tinggal daku kekasih

~like to dedicate tis song to my one and onli honey,saiFul...
syg...im reali sori for wat i had done...
and i reali thankful tat u forgive me...
im goona treasure you even more in the future...
by your dearest baby..dLa

2006-07-27T08:53:00.000+08:00

haluu peeps....

lyfe in the ite can be reali crazy...
been waiting for my taecher outside the classroom or 20 mins...
and he's still not here...haizz....
the weather is so helly hot..and i jus cant take it animore..
hmmm...maybe got no class..blame on me..
for the past two days..didnt went to pp class..opppss...im becomin bad again...haha...

and yah..ystdy met huney at bugis..take bus 2 wit daya,ahmad,fitri and hussain...
laughing lyke hell at the back of the bus...we r such a nuisance bunch...
huney and i dun noe wher to go..we bought milkshakes at mos burger
actuali i wana buy slippers...to my anger..the slippers tat i wan didnt have size...arrrgh...
tis is the second tyme i got tiz...haizz.zz...wat luck.....

2006-07-25T09:55:00.000+08:00

morning guys out der..well jus finish printing my bloody hell project...well actuali we shud be doin it during the hols...but as usual..malas.ystdy stay back after skool to do it..and finali it's done...!!...haiz...my heart is still sad..still tinking of my fwen..ystdy went to check my frenster...saw his pic..feel wanna cry...i can still pictured him in my mind...tis year is going to be the saddest year of all...hmmmto ani1 reading tis..hp u all bleh bacakan dier al-fatehah to him...kurangkan seksa kubur....amin....

and yah..still nw im still wondering the guys who call me on sat nyte..dahlah org ngah sedih2..den got tis fone call..a private no..calling my hp in the middle of the nyte..asking me "ble maen..??? wat the fuck man...who does he tink he is..im no a protitude...then he ask me whether im a virgin or not..hey tat my bisness...and yes im still a virgin...even though i had a guy...then he ask me whether im attached...i say yes..and he ask me.."so u nye guy maen u ah...??hey..he's so damn rude asking tis qns to agirl..where's my dignity man....i ask him..who r u...he told me wan...i ask..wan who....wan' dollar'..haha..lame jokes...then he irritate me by saying..."nak mean...nak maen...."his frens behind him also repeat it..i jus hang up....im so damn angry...
i immediately call my guy and told him abt it..he told me maybe it's my ez who pass my no ard..but i dun tink so..but to ease his mind..i msg my ex..my ex reply..."ask plak me nak pass no my ex yg tersyg...??...ahhhhh...gonna be sick of him...

lucky until today..tat stupid damn ass guy doesnt call me again..im gonna fuck him upside down if he call again.....hmmmmPpp.......

2006-07-24T10:34:00.000+08:00

hey der...finali back to skool but im feeling so sad .....reali sad... a person whom im close with have passed away..sob.sob...th last tyme i met him was the last day of skool...and nw..im not goin to c him again...aidil..tat his name....he's onli 19...reali young to leave the old world..when i saw his corspe on last sat..i jus cry...it's too heartbreaking..i reali couldnt believe it....even the guys cry...ohmy....
ya allah...ampunkan dosa-dosa...
letaklah dier di tmpat-tmpat org yg soleh...
amin...

aidil...pemergianmu akan ku kenang selama-lamanya....

2006-07-05T16:58:00.000+08:00

oh my..oh my...
wat's hapening to me..???
i so confused nw....

1st tis morning...im waiting for my car prac..it's still ard 20 min b4 it start..
i took a seat and look ard..
den i saw the malay instructor tat taught me ystdy...
i quickly look away...hoping he will not see me...
suddenly someone came beside me and gimme M&M chocolate..
i was startled..i look up..it was him..tat malay instructor..b4 i could say anytink..
he jus walk away..goin to smoking corner..and beside him is another malay instructor..
who teach me the 1st tyme i do my prac..the one tat gimme his hp no...oh my...
back to the story...i dun noe wat to do with the chocs..i still haven eat it...
the choc he giv me ystdy oso haven finish yet...
den......after ard 10 min...he came near me...oh oh oh...
i try to maintain my cool...
he ask me wat my car no...
2mrw i got prac or not and wt tyme..
i feel lyke being interogate man...*Shucks*
lastly he ask me if i got prac on sun...
i say no..and he ask if im free on tat day....!!!!
oh my god..!!eacher askin a student out..big no for me..
i say no..saying i got religious class at 3....

and i dun noe shud i tell honey or not...

to make tinks worse...jus nw my ex msg...haizzz..
nutink much e talk..
jus talk the ol memories..i still wont forget the last msg he gave me...
"do me a favour..luv ur guy more than u love me...take care dila..."
im so bloody hell touched by his words..oh..oh...

but i must remind myself wat he had done to me b4..
well...wat past is past...we cant go back....

i hear the song 'unfaithful' by rihanna makes me wanna cry..
i feel lyke im cheating honey...
but i cant forget him...
but yet i have to fight the feeling away....
for the sake of his love...
ya allah...tabahkan hatiku ini....amin....

* Unfaithful *
Story of my life

Searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul

Cause it seems that wrong

Really loves my company

He's more than a man

And this is more than love

The reason that the sky is blue

But clouds are rolling in

Because I'm gone again

And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be...A murderer

I feel it in the air

As I'm doing my hair

Preparing for another date

A kiss up on my cheek

He's here reluctantly

As if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long

Just hanging with the girls

A lie I didn't have to tell

Because we both know

Where I'm about to go

And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be...A murderer

Our Love, his trust

I might as well take a gun and put it to his head

Get it over with

I don't wanna do this

Anymore

Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

And I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be...A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

2006-07-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

hols are here..and instead of getting up late..i've to wake up earli for my car prac..yawnnnn...everidae i went..but well my sacrifies pays up...jus nw my instructor told me..tat im improving...hehe..yay..!!finali..i put lots of efforts to drive properly...yay yay..!!maybe 2mrw i can already book for my prac test..cant wait for it...hopefully by the festive season...i can drive my dad car..:>

well 1st of all.....today is my 1 yr and 5 mth aniversary...yippE.....and oso for my 2 gd fwens..which is the I.D.D...izz is celebrating her 1 year anniversary wit her ayg today...while daya is celebrating her 2 yr aniversary with her darlin 2mrw.....im so hapi for them....hei guys...wher r u guys celebrating..??confirm lepas keje...macam tak tau je...hehe...

~*~ miss u darlz ~*~

** hapi anniversary to us **

2006-07-03T18:02:00.000+08:00

yiPpee...!!!

the hols are finali here...!!!
haaaa..nw can wake up late...i've been so tired and sick of skool....
dun noe wen i'll be meeting my frens...
miss their nonsense..hmmm..
wonder if tis fri...we be going out...

hmMM..it's been 4 days i didnt met honey....he's been bz wit work..wanna to catch up with his bike prac...too bz until he call me late at nyte and talk about 5-10 min onli...haizzz...miss him so much..but wat to do have to bear wit it....lucky nw i've been bz wit my car prac..so got tinks to do ever since i quit my job...if i didnt have to met wit tat mother fucking manager of mine....i wouldnt quit my job....reali hate her to guts....i wonder if she is even human...she's so damn mean..nutink gd ever came to her mouth.....i dun wish to see or talk to her again.....

but well..still cant wait to go out wit honey on tis sat..it's such along tyme since i went out wit honey..wearin hm clothes..normali met him after skool....hp to see honey as soon as possible...reali miss him alots.....

2006-06-28T08:52:00.000+08:00

wtf...!!!

stupid tradenet...halfway thru already..den got stuck...
now have to do again...aiyo.....!!

nowadays..im jus so tired...i finish klass at 4..den went straight to bbdc..which strt at 6..haizz....wanna get licence fast must do lots of sacrifies..ryte..honey promised me he'll be der to take me hm...he was 10 min late...mmMM..the moment he came..his face was a bit angry..oh..oh..

he's not angry with me..but wit his 2nd bro...haiz...he was reali angry..tat i was a bit scared..wen guys are angry...better back off for safety reason...

after tat he call his bro again..and he's a little bit okay...but now..im not okay...
im so damn tired..my eyes are already red..cos of lack of sleep..
i became so irritate by him..haha..

he told me he will be waiting his bro at gombak mrt..but i told him..i wanna go hm..im so tired...i noe he's a bit sad..but hey..im so damn sleepy...

the moment i reach hm...i eat den take a bath..lucky my bro already went to werk..or else he will mess up my bed...hate it man....i watch tv until 10 and finnali want to bed...ZzZzZzZ

and yay..today i'll be goin to town wit honey..so long nvr go der...i wanna find a bag der...at hmv..met him at city hall and off we go...

2006-06-15T11:38:00.000+08:00

if i fall in love...will it last foreva...???

hmmm..tis words has been playing on my mind for such a long tyme...actuali..im a person who is afraid to fall in love....but im ryte now...so in love..but deep down my heart...i still have the ol' pain memories...andi i dun noe whether im doing the ryte tink...hmmm....

because of u...i learn to move on...
because of u...i let go of my past..
and because of u..u make me in love again...

but...

sometyme the old memories come back...
haunting me...
shud i ignore it...or
shud i go back to past...

but..

i jus cant tink about myself...
i shud tink about him too...
the person who bring me back to the real world...
the person who's with me up and down...

syg,

i promise to be with you till the end..
even if our relationship didnt last...
i wont forget our memories......

2006-06-07T08:18:00.000+08:00

jus finsh doin my tradenet in class...so now can update blog..nutink much hapen to my lyfe..met huney almost everidae...:>...spend the tyme we can...day by day..my love for him grow strong..even though he continue to irritate me..well wat eva it is..dila jus love saiful....*muacks*

2006-05-30T10:27:00.000+08:00

gd morning..hmmm...oklah...my stomach in pain..i cant to get the "stuff" inside my stomach out...memang penyakit ah aku ni...haizzz....

ystdy finali i met wit honey...we met under the mrt track and we dun noe wher to go..we r both sweaty so we talk a walk at east point...so boring seh....nutink interesting der..dun say about the clothes...all so the nyonya..im hungry but no idea wher to eat...honey want to eat at bugis so we took mrt..saw daya and fitri inside...i taut they were going tp PP..but they realizd they were late to go class and so decided not to go afterall...nmpknya..izz ajelah yg g class...so GUd of her...hehe...
we got our nice meal at a halal chinese coffeeshop...i love tat place to bit...esp the fried fish soup..oooooOOO...wish i can eat it again today....hmmmmMM..but cannotlah..today finish class at 4..aft tat still got my prac at 6...nw im addicted to my prac..so funnily interesting driving..ysdty while prac..i hit the curb lots of time..haha..lyke playing bumper car...but today gonna try my very best not to repeat the same again...

hmm...ysdty finish prac at 930 pm...cant watch hikmah...love it seh tat show...so traumatic but yet so romantic....hmmmmMMM..

cant wait to met honey again today...maybe last day of the week...cos the rest of the week..he finish class at 6pm...esp 2mrw...i finish class at ard 12..he finish at 6...wahhhhhh.!!!i still figure wat to do..oh pls.....den some more 2mrw my prac is at 750pm...wit honey..cant wait to c honey drive bike...hehe.....

ok..i dun noe wat to say nw..i get goin nw...cu guys again....*SmooCh*

2006-05-29T13:25:00.000+08:00

halu everone...i tink it's been 2 weeks i didnt update my blog..well i jus recover frm high fever...so pathetic ryte..and i didnt went to skool for 1 damn week...it's been sucky sitting at hm...have to eat all ur medicine all the tyme..den got fever again the moment ur body didnt hav any medicine inside them...aiyo...make matter worse...honey is also sick..and he didnt even went to c the doctor..i dun noe how he can hang on to it..i myself went to the doctor twice..and again got the injection on my butt...pain u noe...

but well...im finali recover..jus a lil bit of cough..im jus so depress sitting at hm...and my bro kept on irritating disturb me....there tis once..i was trying to sleep in the living rm..and he went in frnt of me and start laughing...i was lyke...huh..??go away..im trying to sleep...he told me to look on my blanket..jus next to my head...i look at it and saw a dead cockroches...RITE NexT TO MY head..i noe u girls are YuCkIng..EyEwww..aHHHHH....the moment u read tis but i jus PICK it at...yes with my 2 fingers..i pick on its fillers..and threw it back on him...its alucky im not scared of it..or i would shout insanely at him...haha..such a nICe A way my bro giv me to get me well soon...hMMM...

ahhhhh...today in abt 1 and half hour tyme..i'll be meeting honey..miss him so much...damn lots..the last i saw him was las tues..yes..the day i was still sick..u c...last mon nyte i play the comp and found out tat on tues aftn there an empty slot in my car prac..so i book it..i told parent tat im a bit ok so i can go...and so i went to it..and i took a taxi hm....yup..u r ryte...my fever came again..lucky honey was der tat tyme..i almost want to pass out... hehe..thanks honey..but i noe honey was a bit panic seeing me in tat way..the moment i reached hm..i went straight to bed..i didnt even msg him...im jus to weak to msg him...honey call my bro..i noe its him..cos i hear bro say..dier ngah tdo..ah..dari td...honey mus be so worry...sorri honey...

well enuff for my 1 sickening week...nw im so looking forward the new week..okat tat all for nw peeps...got the tyme again..i'll be back...tag me aft reading tis k...peace out......

2006-05-16T11:25:00.000+08:00

hei gd morning everyone..i jus finish my class..next class is at 2.. wah sian...i got ard 3 hrs to surf the net....yippe.....!!!honey jus msg me..he already class..so gd sia....hmmm.....shud i cabot class...wonder..wonder...dun...no gd...nw is my last year...mus get gd result...so can get to poly...high hope huh...hope tat my simple wish can come true..haizzzz..

ltr..i and honey are goin to bbdc..honey wanna enrol his bike license..and i wanna top up my account..put $500 into it...woah...isn't it great to use the money for shoppiNG...???hmm..hmm...
i cant wait to drive the car..so nervous..and yet so excited...hopely by end of these yr..i can drive..sronok man....

2006-05-15T11:37:00.000+08:00

hey..im back again..miss my blog...nw..im at class..changing my skins...and as usual...my blog have probs...goona redo it ltr..aiyo...well nw..im feeling so hapi..many good things have hapen to my lyfe...1st tink of all...i paSS mt FTT..yippee.....i noe u guys tink its jus ftt..hey mind u..i took it 3 times before i finali pass..the qns is easy..but the as all the ans is almost the same...well...nw im lookinf forward to get inside the car...haha..me..?driving..??hope i didnt wreak my dad car i future..hehe...

and...ystdy was My Guy 18 BDAE...hah..da besar dier...ntn ble g clubbing togather..hehehe...i dun noe wat to get for him..so i jus bought him a card...not tat im being chep skate..but seriously i dun noe wat to buy..and on the other hand guy stuff is nt that cheap too..well my fren told me most guys prefer cards den gift as it show sincerity..izzit..??well ltr i'll be meetin him..and let see whether it reali show sincerit..

and last of all..ystdy is MOTHER DAYs...hapi belated mother day to all the mother in world...and also to my lovely mum..ysdty..it jus me and mum at hm..dad and my bro werk all day ystdy..sooo bored..but mum cook mee soto...so yummi...it's been so long mum didnt cook it...at least mum have an idea to cook it den jus cooking plain old meals....

2006-05-03T11:53:00.000+08:00

oNE HeLL oF thE LyfE......

Hei GuyS...lOng Tym I NvR upDAtE tis BloG....I miSS u GuyS and my GeReK FweNs...DAya and IzZAidah....lUp U guys...fiNAlli we Met Again...GossIp Again..hehe..Biasa Ah...KAta PompUan..WeLl SkoOl Strt Again....Ceh...2Nd Year stuDenT seh..Da BesAr..SteP bEsar AdelAh...McM2 dah Jd In mY lIfe...jUS a few DAYs B4 SkOOl ReOpen...i got High FevEr and STomAch Flu...I TInk im Gonna Die...So E TorTuRouS...Got The StuPid InjEctIon On mY bUtt..pain SEh...Hmmm...LAma Tak Kene InJecTion...dEn NeXt Day...Dah FEeL a bIt BeTTer...i GO n REBond my HaiR..CANtik mMG cANtEk...TP mY hAIR ROSAK.....!!!!!!!!NW IM FEELING SO MISERABLE...I waNA Go tReaTMENT...nK BetOlkn RmbT Ni..tp Izz CKP...NTn RmBt MakIN roSAk...Now..IM a BIT bLur....So bLUr and SO mIserable...do U gEt it...

2006-03-20T17:12:00.000+08:00

hmmm ello...ello....im at hm...didnt go to skool...so damn lazy ah...mum nagging at me frm jus nw...y didnt i went to skool...nw i wish i had go to skool...hmMMM....i, so fedup...my sec skool is being renovated and all those digging and wateva it is call..is making SOOOO much noise...and the dust keepin comin to my hm...i keep on scratching myself...(da jadi berok jap)..wonder wen it will be done....haiZZZ...it's been days i met my guy..miss him..2mrw den can see him...but he's not sure..cos hewan to c me wen his pay is in..hMMmm...boring ah...

2006-03-15T13:06:00.000+08:00

elo kwn2...yup im back again.my stomach nw in pain..after eating macaroni soup in cafe 1..the soup is nice but the chiili suck...it seem tat the chilli had turn sour...hmmuy m...wat a waste...but i still finish it aniwae.. if u jus lyke eating spicy food..nutink could change ur mind ryte..?well ystdy i wnt to bbdc..ans as usual i had wait 4 honey..god man..we promised to met at 315 at jurong east..but i arrive at 3 instead..so i jus wait..time pass and at 325..he still haven arrive..im so irritated...so i went to the last cabin to c if he was der..FAT NO...i began sulking and cursing softly...at arnd 340..DEN..he arrive...the moment i saw him..i took my bag and walk into the mrt..im jus so piss off..hey..a guy should wait the lady ryte..not a girl wait for the guy..huhz...he talked to me but i jus ignored him..so the angry u noe....
and it took me a while for me to cool down..den wen we reach at gombak mrt..if im not wrong..i saw my ol classmate..wat her name...ermm...fazianah..yah..a fren whom i used to close..anh have a bit history behind...ahhhh...al tat in the past...lupekan sua...den some more..saw my ex cousin..i noe he saw me but i guess he see my guy beside me..he pretend not to c me...wateva amin.....
im so damn fedup..i FAIL on my final theory evaluation again...ArRRRRGHHHHHH....!!!!!the paper was so damn difficult...most of the qns was not in the book..stuPid..Robb people money onli.....feel lyke giving up sia..luckily parent sponsor..if my own money...i jus QUIT....ayg jus smiled at me to try again....and aft tat he laugh and tease me...so bad...but i noe he jus want to make me hapi...thanks honey....luv u....

2006-03-14T10:54:00.000+08:00

hey der...im nw at mlc..jus finish eatin my breakfast with the gerls at the cafe..lazy to go to mr wong class..ltr at 12 can go..no harm ryte..hehe..ytdy i met honey..i miss im so much...eRRm..at 1st we were hapi together..laughing...him always disturbing me...me cuddling him..and suddenly..i jus feel so irritated and dun want to talk to him...Hmm..mus be my pre-menstrual..i tink honey feel so hurt tat i didnt respond wen he talk to me...i didnt even look at him...i pretend as if he wasnt der by my side...he was so concern y i suddenly became so quiet and didnt talk to him...i jus keep on walkin as if he didnt hear him...well i hear him..jus tat i dun feel lyke talkin...
Im so sorrI hoNeY..
ltr..i will be meeting him..and i gonna apologised wat i had done..sory honey..didnt mean to hurt u...hope u 4give me...oh ya..ltr i got final theory test..i studied ystdy in skool and also inside the mrt..hope i can pass..so tat i can faster take my practical...cant wait..so damn nervous.....:>-

2006-03-13T11:50:00.000+08:00

elo der..it's been long since i last update it..well nutink much had hapen..jus tat my werking place will be renovated on 15 march..and i dun noe wen the place will be ready..5 star huh...last fri..i went to marina sq for attachment der..went der with my frens and we were lost..haha..feel so stupid...4 pza hut crew looking at the directory board..jus to find tat stupid restaurant..we went to the toilet 1st and saw 1 of the pza hut crew der..we ask her and she give us some direction..but we are still so damn blurr...so sotong ahh..luckily wen we went out..we saw my manager...lucky2..we told him we are lost..tat y we r late..and he was lyke..i noe it..hehe...

2006-03-06T09:35:00.000+08:00

hey der...ryte nw..im at seed centre..jus finish doin my research on my tps project...nw my poor izz is trying her best to read my handwritting on the piece of paper..hehe...sori Darlin'...im so fed-up on las fri..no-one told me fdm class was cancel..soim the lonely soul..waitin outside the class for about 15 min..i msg wan qian...and she told me der's no class and goin to wim class is optional...haiz..i wnt hm...and reach hm at damn 930..wasted my money onli...

enuff of tat...my weekend is bz..my cousin got hitched and i have to helped out...so tiring tat i dun want to go to skool today..but since i haven do my project..i need to...at the wedding..got some cute guys..washing the stupid plates...and 1 of them ask for my no..i jus smile at him onli...syg..i jus SMILE at him ok.....and the next day..i found out he is my brother frens....aiyo..wat a small damn world.....

i have seen ayg since friday..miss him so damn much...i guess i jus met him on thurs..maybe i have to go to his hm again..he told his dad is werkin in the mornin...and as usual he had to take care of nurul..haiz...so difficult..but wat to do....syg punyer pasal...im havin blocked nose and a bit of sore throat..and i dun feel gd..maybe..i miss syg so much...tat i felt so sick....haizZZz.....

2006-03-01T12:56:00.000+08:00

ello guys...im in mlc wit my fwens...all bz wit thier own comp..ryte nw..im so hapi nw...finali at last..ayg got a skool...!!..even though it bring nutink to me..but it sure mean a lots to me....well ayg will be skooling at ite balestier..hope he have fun der..with the guys...not the girls...ok i noe..dun be to jealous..but hey..i love ayg so much...even though sometymes he is so irritating..have to wait for him for such a long tyme...i still love him..i guess..loving some1 mean u also have to tolerate wit all his nonsense..haiz...

jus nw have a talk wit mdm anna cheng..she's askin for din..we ask her abt the debarrmemt letter and told us onli din would be debarred...fuhhh......lucky..lucky...im not a student but im also not a bad student..jus tat...i've been skipping class alot of tymes...and i always met ayg after tat...tat the tyme we spent together..

ltr..i need to go to my werkplace..got training courses der..i went to skool wearing my job pant and shoes..so UNCOMFORTABLE...feel so weird...n i would be hm late again..ard 10 plus...haiz...ystdy..i went to bbdc...have to go thru my final theory lesson..so bored and i feel so damn SLEEPY...even worse..the room got lots of minah..aiyoo..wat luck...

back to my love lyfe..e last i saw ayg was on mon..but onli for hour and half..cos ayg gtg to werk at 6...so miserable..hopefulli i met him ltr..i miss him so much...

2006-02-27T13:48:00.000+08:00

hay der...it's been lyke 3 weeks since i last update my blog..hehe..i noe u guys miss me...:P..okok..well lots of tinks hapen..bt i dun tink i wanna write everytink..well last thurs..i didnt go to skool..i went to jrg east swiiming complex wit ayg..reach der ard 1130 and went back at 415..so long huh..nw my skin is having a lil' bit of sunburn..aiyo...tis cumin sat is my cousin wedding and nw my skin is lykr f**k...hopefulli it get better by the weekends..

ryte nw..i been bz wit all my skool presentation...etp..fdm and tps...hell sia...nw have to be stuck in front of comp..do the stupid tinks...ahh..later can do...i been missin my guy..he didnt call me ystdy...*sobsob*..well..finali he call me jus nw..sayin hw much he miss me..and ltr i will be seeing him..yippe..!!

2006-02-07T12:31:00.000+08:00

2006-02-06T10:10:00.000+08:00

the tyme nw is 10.04 am on my computer..and im here inside my class...last saturday..040206...is ma 1 year being wif syg...damn hapi..b4 tat i werk 1st...i finish at 6...and he told me he wait 4 me at pza hut back door..the moment the clock strike at 6.. i clockout quickly..and i went to the back door..well he haven arrive yet...so i took a rest 1st and talk crap wif ma other fwens...i look out again..and he still haven arrive..haiz...wher is he...so i went to the toilet 1st...and when i go back to the back door..he was walking towards the door..at last he is der..smilling at me...he went towards me and kiss me on the cheek..:>...so the romantic..hehe..we were bot hungry..so i went back inside and make for us some spaggeti...he told me to so 2 packet..i put all the ingredient and mixed it all together and put inside the microwave...the spaggti was damn lots sia..lyke a mountain..my godbrother was lyke...can u finish it...?i told him..i sharing wif syg...

we sit behind and he feed me...so sweet..lyke small kid who dont noe how to eat properly..hehe..both of us were damn full aft tat...syg smoke for a while.den we ta ke a walk at Jp..b4 proceeding 'Home'...hehez..

2006-02-03T12:16:00.000+08:00

Hey DeR...im HeRe..weLL i juS finish my werk..half the class have started blogging..n i joined in the fun..heheZ..ystdy..syg wait for me outside skool..and he saw me climbing the gate...he was smilling at me and i was lyke...OH mY gOd...!!!..if onli HakeEm didnt shout at him..he would Not Notice Me climbing the gate...im was soOOO The PaiSeh...and he told me..he PuRpoSely Stand Far aWay so tat he caN see climb..haiyo...

we waited for bus 2...and we alight at Bedok...we Buy some crackers and took the bus 30 to boon lay...it was a damn long Journey..i took the bus at 145and i reach boon lay at 330..my butt was all cramn..but i njoy ma self with syg..it's been Long i met him...

weLL For TomoRRow..its ma 1 YeAr AnnIverSary....!!!!..WeeEEE...!!..damn hapi..tomorrow aft werk..we met each other..cant wait for it...:>

2006-01-25T13:37:00.000+08:00

hello fwens...im here again...at mlc..ystdy..i went syg hm area...and i ask him to wait for me at the bustop near his hm...wen i reach der..he haven arrive yet..so i seat first..and a few mins..he came with nurul...nurul was damn cute..syg haven tie up her hair and i never see nurul with her hair lyke tat..so the beautiful...syg ask me to go to the playground and put on her shoes...after puttin on..syg let her play at the playground...she was thrill..i told syg i bring his brownie and he took it out...nurul saw it and went in front of syg...i want to bring her nearer to me but she wont move..syg told me she want to eat the brownie..i took the brownie and feed her some of it...she look so cute nibbling the brownie...after finishing it off...kite bawak dier...terkedek-kedek.dier jln...syg kept on laughing at her...

cepatkan story...ltr we bring her to jurong point...everione was looking at us...i went to pza hut to check ma roaster..my chinese fwen look shocked seeing syg carrying nurul...they ask me...is tat ur daughter...?i kept on laughin..me...have a child..?at tis age?nonsense...haha...

after we walk for a while and den we went hm...we took the mrt hm..and student of ite clementi keep lookin at us...den at bukit batok mrt..the guys look at me and ma guy...haha..1 day..full of laughing..enjoy ma day veri much...

2006-01-24T20:37:00.000+08:00

* FreNZ FoReVa *

2006-01-24T11:25:00.000+08:00

elo der..been a long tyme since i update ma blog...last friday..we had a bazaar...the sales quite ok...but since it's on friday..not many pple are around...wateva it is...it's finally over...for goodness sake...

well i'll be meeting ma guy today...i met him at his hm area...since his dad would come hm at 3 and he is waitin for apit to come hm...and there is nurul at hm...so it make him difficult to come to ma skool to fetch me...i dun mind..as long i can jus met him...im hapi enuff...

syg jus dye his hair blond...make him look even cuter...adorable..handsome...okay..okay...nw im drooling abt ma syg...hehez...i noe tat im the only one in his heart...

ystdy...we had a talk...a talk which i had never heard frm any of ma ex....we are goin to be 1 yr soon...(wow...!!! 1 yr...so fast...so hapi....) and he decided tat we should change...meaning we shld spend more tyme chilling out together and less tyme doin crappy tink...(for couples out der..u should noe wat i mean...)..it's jus worth it....it's tyme for us to tink of the future instead of jus doing it for sake of 'nafsu'....we try to learn to respect our love and tink abt our parents...wat would they do if they were to find oout he tinks we had done bfore...

syg and i did not go to the extend tinks..jus sometink roughly...haiz.....

nw..i even love syg even more...not bcos of looks..but becos of his sincerity and honesty...

syg i appreciate it so much...
thank u for being der for me...
u r part of ma complicated lyfe nw...
i Love YoU Lots...MuaCcKz...

2006-01-17T11:52:00.000+08:00

im here gain..nw inside the library...damn noisy wif all these new freshmen..cant concentrate..haiz....well ysty i met ma guy..we met at jurong entertainment and stakat jln2 je...den we went to NTUC and buy Kinder beuno...(WEeee!!!!)..getting bored..we decided to hang ard at ard bukit batok...over der..he tease me and joke ard.. i was getting irritating and i wanna kick his *TUT*..but he was fast enuff to cover it wif his knee tat my knee knocked his knee...!..it was damn painful..as if i was kicking a metal rod..i was laughing and crying at the same tyme...but he still haven realised it yet..he kept on laughing and teasing me until he see i was bending over..he was suprised...he ask me was i laughing or am i cying...hehez...den i pretend i was angry wif him and he gave his innocent look...(oh my..i could jus melt looking at him wif tat look...!)he was totaly sori abt it..i could not even walk straight..! and i end up taking a bus hm...even though he should on his way to werk nw..hw still wait for me until the bus come....:>the bus came and he told me to call him wen i already reach hm...i make a face to him and walk up the bus...(got u Baby..)
i call him and he told me he was so sori abt it and he doesnt mean to hurt me...(Yahyah..i noe he doesnt mean it..pretend 2 be angry mah...)and nw my knee ada LEBAM...aiyo...ni lg sakit...syg...u gonna get sometink ltr...jus watch out...hahaz....

2006-01-16T08:39:00.000+08:00

okay..here i am again...i arrive skool at 745am..went to the toilet and den proceed to ma monday klass..but weirdly there's a different teacher inside and i dun even noe one of dem...i wen to admin blok..and saw another differnt student..nw i dun noe wher to go...i went up and down...wander around lyke a wanderin soul...den i decided to go to mlc...but haven open up yet..the sign say it open at 830 and i look at ma watch..and it jus show 815...haiz..15 min hav to wait..i cant msg ma fwen...prepaid low ah...aiyo....susah2....:<
now finaly got sometink to do...i tink ma class is cancelled...gdlah...class so bored...but now im in a gd mood tday...honey msg me early in the morning..and gimme damn sweet msg...tis msg i jus love it...honey i love u so much...:>

syg..
bila kutatap wajah dan matamu
terasa hangatnya bahtera cinta yg kita layari
bila kukenangkan saat2 indah kita bersama
terbayang wajahmu yg selama ini kurindui dan kusayangi
syg..
ku rindukan dakapan,belaianmu dan guraunmu manjamu
yg membuat ku senantiasa ingin bersama disisimu
buat selama-selamanya
telah ku ukir didlm hatiku ini hanya namamu
percayalah syg....
cintaku hanya padamu
rinduku hanya padamu

isnt it sweet...?
wake up...and ur sweethart shower u wif all tis words...:>

2006-01-15T16:36:00.000+08:00

hai..im at hm..feeling damn gloomy...got bit of argument wif ma guy...i shout at him and nw feel so GUILTY..syg..im so sorry..i jus so irritated by u telling me again and again...i noe tat u r so concerned abt me...haiz..maybe its my mistake...i should appreciate u...and be thankful wat u had done 4 me...so sori...:<

Forgive me syg....

2006-01-11T13:50:00.000+08:00

morning..morning...ryte nw im inside my fdm class..jus finish doing ma werk...so jus update ma blog...ystd i spent 1 whole day wif ma darling..i met him at 11 in the morning...it was still drazzling...so jus chill at jurong east mrt station..he crack me up..making al his jokes..n i laugh lyke maniac...den ma darling say he was hungry and we eat at kfc...i eat fish ole..and he ate 3 piece of wings...(he was damn hungry :>)...gagah btol guy aku ni...hehez..den we went to watson...looking at some stuff...:>...we were getting bored..so i decided to go to imm and went to daiso..but den the rain started pouring and we realised tat the shuttle bus going to imm hav already left...it take abt half and hour fr the next bus to arrive..so we decided to buy an umbrella...we bought a purple colour wif flower on it..so the girlish...n i forced ma guy to bring it hm..haha..half way thru to imm..we decided to chill under the void deck...we talk crap..and do crappy tink...*wink wink*..den we go to imm..i buy blusher and concealer..all of it jus cost $4...damn cheap sia....i got my theory evaluation so i proceed to bbdc..aiyo..so many people..and i saw mt ex fwen..luckily she nvr see me...i never lyke her...she's so the bitchy....nvm her...DARLING WAIT FOR ME PATIENTLY...so sweet..:>

2006-01-11T09:33:00.000+08:00

Syg...i LovE U loTs...!!

2006-01-11T09:07:00.000+08:00

ello..ello...ryte nw im at mlc..all alone..my fwen haven reach yet..jus nw went to lecture..but i was studying for ma WIM test..jus started studying at 4 in the morning..and nw..im damn sleepy..syg promised me he wake me up..but i guess he's tired...its alryte syg..ur baby nt angry wif u...im so stress up wif all these last minute study..so play comp..haiz...ape nak jd ngan aku ni...i wonder my fwens have study for the test..they all r lyke me...last minute...aiyo....new year..mus change...:>
well ystdy at ma granma hm..suddenly i mis ma guy so much..actuali kind of jealousy..tinkin tat he's going start werking back at btp..abt al the gerls der...i noe it sound lyke stupid..but it just make my hart feel pain tinking abt it..syg seem lyke reading ma mind and he comfort me tat im the only one in his hart..(yeh yeh!!! :>)..hehez..sometymes i jus crazie......luckily i hav got my syg who always der for me.....I LOVE U ALOT....!!!!!!!!!MUACCCKZZZZZ...!!!!

2006-01-10T11:28:00.001+08:00

hey der..i jUs hav a bLog...So hapi abt it... :>...wanna suprise ma honey....well 2day is hari raya aji...later im going to grandma hm at woodland...bored man...the weather been pretty bad past few days...and i dun feel lyke going Out...:<...AND EVEN WORSE....I mISS MA SWEETIE ALOT!!!!..man..i guess i jus see him on saturday..tat if we r goin out..haiz...baby..i mis u and love u alots... Ma honey nw are on the way to his grandma hm in tampines...ltr he got SHOOTING over der...haha..!!!ltr his face Will appear In SuRIA...DETIK..hehehe...!!!..cant wait to watch the show on WEdnesday...

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